I don’t even know what I can say in the few minutes I have to type out this post, but I wanted to squeeze one last (albeit short and not very eloquent/organized) note in as a single lady.

I suppose that since it is Easter (Happy Easter, by the way!), and with a life-changing event happening in six days (oh hey wedding! how’s it going?), it’s appropriate to share some loose thoughts I have been working on over the last few months as they relate to spirituality and change.

Ace — thank you for the change that has been worked in my life through your ideals, your laughter, your love. You know this already, but it bears repeating: I can’t WAIT to marry you!

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Proposal: change is creation.

What if creation was not so much a singular point in time, but rather something that stretched much farther? What if God’s primary tool and method for creation was not earth or bone or anything physical (which only comprises a small part of who we are). What if his raw material of creation was time, a constantly changing and breathing and expanding and pulsing tapestry of life through ages?

What if, being knit in our mother’s wombs was only the beginning — what if our entire lives bear the fingerprints of the Lord as we grow physically, mentally, spiritually. (A newly birthed child is only the beginning of the person he will fully be someday.)

Therefore:

Life matters because it is the method by which we are created — from the earliest moment of our cellular evolution* to final breath. In light of this idea, age and decay are beautiful** — pain is part of it too. Are we invited to partake in our own creation of ourselves, our life, our world, as we enact change?

There is something more important going on here.

Stagnancy, lukewarmness, apathy are the enemies of a Christian. These are the places where our senses are dulled, and we are lulled into thinking that change (read: creation) is unnecessary and, in fact, unwanted.

Change (though at times difficult, heartbreaking, painful), bears witness to our continual creation. After all, the Lord does not shelter himself from these pains (see Good Friday and “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted“).

Change shows the molding of our lives by a Creator who can take good materials and make something better, and who can take bad materials and make something completely different. Change is the uneasy miracle that pushes us right back where we should be: nestled under the protection of our God.

*DNA — does our creation begin with our sequence (not just our personal sequence, but our human sequence)? Are we more one that we realize?

**How does our frame of reference affect what we view as “good” creation. Do you believe God created mold? Tooth decay? Bacteria? Are these good as well? Give it some thought.

It’s been really quiet around tea@elevensies, but we have good reasons. At the end of the month, Ash will be walking down the aisle, and at the end of the week I will be starting a new job. That’s right, it finally happened. Char got her first job! I will be working as an assistant editor at Baking and Snack Magazine, a publication for corporate bakeries such as Pillsbury. I’m so excited to finally start a full time job using the skills I’ve spent so much time and money learning and developing.

The job is located in Kansas City, so we’ve spent the last two week finding an apartment, and this weekend, we made the big move! We chose to downsize to a small one bedroom apartment so that we could save money for a down payment on a house. We’re so excited to finally move, and so far we feel like we really belong here. This is a new adventure for us, and I’m excited to keep you posted.